将死者的告白

我时时在想，如果能自己一个人乘着一叶偏舟，顺着一条宁静的小河，随流而下，日暖风和，那将会是多么写意的事。在想像中，我也常常像傻子一样，嘴边挂着笑意。出乎我意料之外，有一位稍懂心理学的朋友说这是一种离死不远的心态，实在不宜取之。

我当然只是吐一吐舌头，不当一回事。我不禁感觉到自己对生活的态度轻率。真的要不得。

不过我还是要说，知道自己要死了的人心态会往两个方向，一则更积极，要不就更消极。一个念头，可以用积极或消极的方式来处理。明白了么？

其实我是回想起外公的事，忍不住要在这里笔录下来。外公在七十多岁的时候，有一天忽然心血来潮，四处的来回奔波，又神神秘秘的，没人知道他在干嘛。半年后他陷入了痴呆，时时开门请看不见的远房亲戚好友进来喝茶，把全家人都给吓坏了。

他死后第二天，我妈发现，他不但已经拍好了自己遗照，连棺木都预先订购好了。

丧礼的那几晚，实体的亲戚好友来得不多，看不见的那些，我隐隐约约的感觉到有很多。

我觉得人死前有那种觉悟，也挺不错的，你觉得呢？

伤心，我们的伤心

我不知道人类的最伤心会到什么程度。不过我们好像宣告天下只有人类才有资格拥有最痛心疾首的心情。是这样吗？

我可以肯定，小孩子的伤心才是最 真的。他们没有无名的悲痛，说不清的难过，以及遥远的忧虑。我非常的羡慕他们。他们永远是我快乐的启蒙老师。

当我的老二兴高采烈的在豪雨 后行成的水塘里嘻戏，我舍不得告诉他水已比十年前更脏了。我也狠不下心跟他说，在我的年代，雨停了，池塘的水也满了，蜻蜓成群的飞来产卵。满池都是蝌蚪， 每天抓也抓不完。现在要看青蛙，只能到动物园。

我们的快乐遗产，已所剩无几可以给他们了。

赤子的伤心，其实就是他们的 爱。他们只为爱而伤心，为爱而奋怒，为爱而每天努力的活着。

我的小女儿，有一次曾经以她所有的红包钱来交换我的一次拥抱。那时她才四岁。 让我又感动，又惭愧了老半天。

我不知道自已还会拥有感动的心多久，不过我敢宣告天下只有人类才会有如此的感动。

那是我们 的希望，即使天地都逝去。

(I want to take this post and welcome my new found friend, who you may notice I link her at my blog. Please enjoy your stay here. I can't express well in English. Pardon me.)

How to snipe your neighbor

Actually I am researching how to DIY an auto sniping rifle that can fire 3 rounds in a second when needed, but I guess as long as my 6 year old son think it's cool it would suffice. I am already laughing thinking about how the cat next door would react after it was shot at. No, thats not me talking, it is my inner child craving for attention.

Anyway, here you are, DIY sniper gun

妈妈。我不眠的夜。

I am suppose to write a Chinese review. But I got so many Korea culture shock from this movie that I decided to write a bit in English. You know, I never really watch a Korean movie, but the title and the casts, and reviews from the web push me to watch. I was also mistaken in many occasion as one who dislike Korea. I do not. I admit I was so much intrigue by Japanese culture, but after this movie, I can say Korea can be as fascinating as you want it to be.

There is this thing about their language, if you are Chinese who speaks good Mandarin, I swear you can understand Korean by just listening it for many times. It's a strange feeling.

Here is my Chinese review.

妈妈，韩国电影 （Madeo）。如果你想在这部戏里找感动，不要迟疑了！我重头到尾只稍微感动了五分钟。希望你能找到更多。

不过，这是一部好电影吗？当 然，我只是觉得它轰轰雷声响，却下毛毛雨。不够过隐，也不足回味。要是重看，我绝不重看。

戏里倒有几个纳罕之处，比如说，原来韩国的车辆没 有警报。有一幕晉久，演正泰的那位，飞腿把一辆豪华型轿车的望后镜给踢断了，那辆车哼都不哼一声。也就是说，没有防盗警铃。想来是偏僻乡村，运输困难，所 以全部的车都懒得装。另外，我个人觉的花文字幕，翻译会比英文来准确，我当然不懂韩文，这只是单纯个人的感觉。你看过了就会明白。

从开始 到戏结尾，妈妈故事桥段都篇排的不错，没有冷场，剧情一步一步的解开金惠子如何解救的儿子。整场戏的重头，其实就是金惠子。元斌演的弱智儿子也瞒好的，就 是不哭不笑也不怒。这角色难演。

我蛮喜欢戏的开场，它说明了这部戏是带点轻松幽默的，而戏也办到了。你有是会让戏里一些搞笑的韩国文化惹 得微笑，如果你哈韩的话，更能体会。

我喜欢整部戏。我虽不会重看，但会推荐它。我给它四颗星，值得看。

Mother, the Korean Movie

I am watching this tonight. Saw it on the shelf of Laser Flair, did some work on the web, decided to purchase. I kinda wish the cinematography is as good as the told story. You should watch with me. I will be writing a review, in Chinese off course, later. See ya!

Oh, almost forget to mention, it is rated M18 in Singapore. You know lah, Singapore MDA rating.

Piracy is not theft, poster of Havard.

They said it all, nuff said.

An accurate anatomy guide of all human races for artist

Not all, but almost. This is by far the mot detail illustration of human body for artist I came across. Click to enlarge, click to the actual page. Via Stumbleupon.

笑谈孔夫子

只要你的身体留有点滴华人的血，就应该认识孔子。不认识他的学说，也应该认识他本人。不然你可能需要去验一下血，看一看它到底是什么颜色。说不定它和蜻蛙 一样，是蓝色的。

认识的孔子应该知道，他有个英（文）名叫Johnny。不过仲尼一点西洋水也没喝过，就有如戏里扮演他的周润发一样。正 所谓英雄不问出身。

除了英文名外，有句非常的话，也是出自孔子之口，那就是“以女子和小人为难养也“。这句话轻视了女人几千年，却成为了 让人们更认识孔子的话。

其实这部戏的主角，除了让周润发来演，真的再也找不到更适合的人了。大家惴磨一下为什么。

非常欣 赏制作人没有采用电脑特技来美化这部戏，戏里的山水，美不可言。比起欧洲的华丽山水，戏里中国的山水多了一种肃穆，沧桑的感觉。这应该居功于选择场景的 人。单看戏里的山水，就值回票价了。

这部戏有个体贴的地方，凡第一次出场的历史人物，都会有一段小字幕，介绍该人物。让观众不必废心思去 猜度，可以专心观赏电影。不过我本人还是认为，即使有字幕介绍，在新加坡还是会有多数人看了也不知道。非常的可惜。

周迅可算是生错了时 代，在这“唯女子与小人为难养也“的春秋战国时期。她前前后后出场不到十五分钟，充分的显出了当时的封建制度。女人，只不过是花瓶。不过，因为她出场时间 的长短是所有女角色之冠，女主角之誉，当之无愧。呵呵。不过老实说，我也是看完戏后，才了解春秋战国时期原来是这么开放的。戏中南子不但企图色诱孔子，整 场戏露颈露肩，大腿手臂也毫不客气的露出来，害我差点以为这是部黄晶的戏。

整体来说，这部戏制作严谨，演员认真，故事有序，场内外景的选 择都到家，唯独写实面不足。这是一部好电影，值四颗星。

Spiritual food increases throughout ages

Religion & Ethics News Weekly has this very interesting piece which says food served to Jesus and disciples increase over time. Duh! What do you know, Jesus is real after all.

" Two scholars compared artistic depictions of the Last Supper and found that the portions served to Jesus and the apostles became larger and larger over time."

(Link)

This will be how I teach my children Pi

This is a 4 year old song, but I enjoy it so much.

What happen when we get older

Everyone gets younger once in a while. For me, I have to stay young most of the time. Literally. I mean, I try to be serious and all, and behave like an adult. But man, how can I?

Despite of all those unforgiving white hairs that start to crawl on my temple, my companions refuse to let me grow old.

We scribble on empty paper together, pretending to draw a better world, while trying to guess what the others try to express. We laugh at that ugly monster, we love it, and then we frame it up. It becomes the painting of the house, for that week.

There is no time for tiring affairs, as if we fear that the whole world would be gone in split seconds. Why would we waste time on other love when you know you already own it all.

They always are news of the day, there for you to immerse yourself into a kind of love that you wouldn't want to call it quit. And you know, no others can come between.

How to know such love exist, and last forever? When you wouldn't want another, and you wouldn't want to exchange it even for heaven.

It becomes so sad when you come to think about there is still so much to give, and wanted to give again. Every year we were refresh, knowing that there is another year to give. We ask to let us give, we want to.

You have only one family in a life time. Like life, there is no turning back. Make it count and worthwhile. We pray for your well being. Godspeed, for hope, for you all.

夜观，十月围城

我不是很喜欢鲁迅，但喜欢他的文学集。尤其是那篇“这样的战士”，不可言欲的悲呛，不能胜而又不得不面对的局，要用几滴墨才能点得清楚。我时时在想，如果鲁迅生在此时，又是一位影评，不知他会对现在的第八艺术作出什么评论。

我有时爱用直觉去衡量一部电影的好坏。我不否认，“十月围城”听起来颇有韵味，之中让人期待有兵豪马壯之景，千刀万剑交叉之声。我相当喜欢这样的剧名，命名者有艺术家的文思，能触动爱电影者的遐想。不错。

英文名“Bodyguards And Assassins"却马马虎虎。让人觉得不爽，好像是找不到好名，随便便阿猫阿狗的凑上了。敢情是觉得这部戏，反正洋人也看不懂。也不用多废唇舌，对牛谈琴。

不知道是不是有意，编剧好像故意舍孙中山这个名，戏里由始至终，竟只有孙文。哈！中山没了，变成了文皱皱的孙文，好像有点含沙射影。那为什么不用孙逸仙呢？我可觉得这是个更好的选择。

十月围城算是部相当严肃的戏吧？可是为什么当我看见满脸胡子的黎明，躺在那里，木然的掉下泪时，却忍不住的笑了？

王学圻在戏中给我留下相当深刻的印象，尤其是他重复梁家辉话的那幕，结结巴巴，充分的表现出市侩了数十年的商人，初明大义时，尚不知如何以口齿表达的状况。演技到足了家，这实在是个非常适合他的角色。他，是这部戏的焦点。

戏里不够好的地方，莫过于甄子丹和戏里女儿的那场，小女孩天真，害臊的表情自然，眼光不自然不用说，谁都知道要让小孩表演有多困难。甄子丹没达到当一位父亲第一次认识女儿，但又想到不久可能就要永远分离，终于了解到当父情的意义，时候不多了。好。。好像对他有点太难了。甄子丹要演真正感情戏恐怕还需一段时候。

十月围城令人期待高，却有点漏气。三颗半星，看不看由你。